My Insecurities

I felt my skin being ripped away from my bones.
I heard my voice travelling away my soul.
I knew it was time to put up a fight but I decided not to.
Too afraid to loose, too afraid to be ridiculed
Maybe I lost faith in my strength; maybe I never had the strength

Somehow I knew I was wrong to loose faith,
Somehow I knew I was slowly becoming a failure.
So afraid of the higher voices, I seem to have lost mine.
So afraid to hear the truth I have suddenly become deaf.
So afraid to see failure manifest within me, I have suddenly become blind.

Every word I utter is power I know.
Because I am different, my difference makes me unique.
My difference makes great, a product of who I have become.
I have a choice to live in fear and create disabilities.

Or

Be strengthened and show the world what I have to give.
Sometimes my choices seem so blurred I can hardly see.

Copyright © 2003 Evelyn Enitan Otoki

JUST DO IT

Why walk if you can run a million miles.
Why hum if you sing like an angel.
Why cry if you can laugh so loud.
Why kill if you can heal.
Why complain if you can maintain.
Why do it, if you can be it.
Why dream all nightlong, if you can live your dream during the day.
Wake up child of destiny discover the real you within you, do what you gatz to do.
Say what you mean
Mean what you say.
Za policy zoo keep all zay long.
Whatever your dream be ... "JUST DO IT"
Always remember you can do all things, the only one restricting you is you

Copyright © 2003 Evelyn Enitan Otoki

Some say I died

They placed me in a beautiful white coffin
Filled with satin sheets, and diamonds across my feet
A white bible across my chest.
Whilst I lay to rest
I was dressed in the most elegant white gown.
It felt like heaven sat down, and my wedding begun

Suddenly there was silence

Then I hear a rose gently drop over me.
Dust to dust the preacher said
Ashes to Ashes my mother said.

I hear the mourning ... the crying ... the screaming
The voice of my baby sister sighing
I hear the whistling bird from afar
soothing my earthly mothers and friends

Then I opened my eyes
Nurses all around me
speaking my name
Is that a sign I say
I almost thought we lost you she says
I wonder sometimes if I really died
or why my imagination ran so wild

Cuz in my mind the funeral was so divine
How oh how could I be alive?

Copyright © 2006 Evelyn Enitan Otoki